my first Valentine taken…..
❤️🩹
Hey y’all🤭,
“Wagwan guys” in Asherkine’s voice,
What’s popping?😃
As you can already feel, I’m in high spirits and I really can’t tell why but I guess we’d find out soon.🤭
This is not a well thought-out letter, so forgive me if it seems disjointed, I haven’t written for a while now…..
Yes, I’m fine, I’m just consumed with many other stuff and trying to develop a routine that works, if you can provide tips on how best to form a routine, please share with me.
Because I’m struggling, 24hours is very insufficient these days, I need extra hours to cross off every single thing on my to-do list.
Because this year is not even a joke!
*inserts “this year be like joke to you?” meme because I couldn’t find it…..
But, I hope you didn’t break your leg rushing to view this post?
Pst Mildred will say, “una too like gist…”🤣
Well, now that you are here, Happy Valentine’s Day, I wished you last year and I’m never going to miss out on the chance to wish you this year and the next and the next……..
But please tell me you’re not still single this year….
You are?????
Why?
Let me answer that for you🤭👇
But that’s okay, we’re PLENTY and no I didn’t abandon you in the singles group chat🤣, I’m one of the admin and we are still very much together but I’m not sure how long though🤷♀
I have seen many Valentines but this is ‘my first Valentine taken….. by surprise.’
Last year was a defining year for me, A LOT happened but one of such events caressed me to begin to warm up to the idea of love and I was so sure that 2024 Valentine would be my last Valentine single, I even had affirmations to back it up to show God how serious I was……
……but here we go again.
If you know me, you will know that I have never recommended love, never ever.
The Love of God? Oh yes, by all means possible!
The love of a man or woman…….well, there was a time when I was working full-time as a meme activist against love but that’s all in the past now….
But last year felt different and somehow I felt ready. I don’t know how but I just thought/felt ready.
Ready to open up, ready to be vulnerable, ready to let someone disrupt the normal rhythm of my heart, ready to let someone into my space, ready to let someone get to me so much that they can annoy me and there’s nothing I can do about it, ready to apply all that I had binge watched from the Okonkwo’s YouTube page, ready to get on daily long hour calls picking flowers (like my younger sister would say🤣).
Ready to be committed and accountable, ready to learn someone’s favorite scent, ready to argue Bible and study scriptures with someone, ready to have someone else that is not me or my mum as my screensaver, ready to give per-second update about my life(saying bye to “don’t let them know your next move”), ready to coerce somebody’s son to sing for me, ready to spend all my money on someone, ready to embrace a Love that could be because they didn’t swear for me naaaa.😭
…..this is the least of the things I was ready for.
And because my heart was already fertile, I started getting deals🤣 but every time I would make an attempt to escape my sheer singleness, like David asking God, “shall I pursue, will I overtake?” I would feel God pulling me by my hair (it was that intense) to sit back down and focus and keep my mouth shut especially because He didn’t call me into the ministry of customer service, neither am I a podcaster or newscaster.
Got so bad that I fell seriously ill on the day one of my finest and most eligible prospects was in my city and wanted to meet up but God would not allow me to JUST meet up. The moment the Baba was out of my city, my health was restored.
Why? I mean, it’s just a “meet up,” not even a date.
That’s when I knew “it’s not a small matter o” in Aunty Jenifa’s voice.
Didn’t I just feel I was ready????
But let me ask you,
“How do you measure readiness especially as a believer? Do you measure readiness by ‘feelings?’ Or do you measure readiness by God’s Word to you in that particular season?”
May I remind you that the distinction between ‘feeling’ and ‘God’s Word’ is in its life span. Feelings are fleeting/evanescent, God’s Word is forever/eternal.
And maybe that readiness could be from God, He may just be planting the seed(desire) in your heart but the fruit it produces should not coerce you into desperation and self-dependence that you seek to set things in motion by yourself. Rather, the fruit produced should spur you on to patience and trust that if God plants a seed in your heart, He’ll water it, nurture it, cause it to bloom and flourish, all you have to be is open and willing to participate where necessary, not attempting to scurry off on your own.
And so, I stopped talking to my favorite prospect, ohhh my chest….🥹😭
I know singlehood is a gift and all that these “my favorite preachers” preach about but imagine my shock when I realized that this month would make it my fourth year single in a row.
My chest again…..🥹😭
For someone who struggles to remain consistent with her goals, this consistency shocks me.
Maybe I am consistent after all🤷♀️🤣
But here me out, let’s not lie this particular Valentine will tug at your heart very much because the plans these lovebirds have for you….will make you ask God ‘why’ and make you wish you were on the other side of someone’s love and affection but YOU AREN’T!
I know it hurts but don’t be discouraged or overwhelmed.
This is from person wey dey ‘whelm’ to person wey dey ‘whelm’, from ‘sister to sister’ or ‘sister to brother’ as the case maybe…
I can’t promise you that yours will come because It’s not my place to but I can boldly tell you that……
God is Love, and His Love is the right type of overwhelming Love. Let His Love fill your heart on such conspicuous day.
But more importantly, resist the urge to pretend that you don’t care or you don’t desire such in your life. It is man’s innate desire to love and be loved. God can’t bless who you pretend to be.
Finally, I want to point the spotlight on the girl who feels stuck in her dating life,
Who feels unseen, unheard,
Not viewed, not desired,
Overlooked and not prioritized,
Admired but not wanted,
Looked at but not seen,
Seen but not FOUND and known.
God is not oblivious to the current state of your love life, He’s writing your favorite love story. A love so pure and true that you’d never have to second guess it.
But it would interest you to know that God is hiding you and He’s hiding you for the obvious reason that God hides His best men.
You are too precious, too priceless, too valuable to be cheaply displayed for every and anyone to view, touch and experience.
Why am I saying all of these?
Some of you may already know that you have very serious/sensitive call on your lives and it matters so much to God the person you end up with because it either aids or aborts the fulfillment of God’s purpose in and through your life.
And so, God is calling you to a place where you value the anointing, the gifting, the potential He has placed on your inside as much as He values it so much so that no one is permitted to toil with you.
He’s calling you to a place where you’re so convinced about His plan for your life that you cannot be moved by the mere appearance of petals and roses popping up on your instagram feed.
And you may like me seek to hide yourself in God so much so that a man has to seek God’s heart to find you.
Matter of fact, I can’t promise you that this will be your last Valentine singuu but as long as you(we) survived the last, survived this one, you will survive the next until the fullness of God’s plan for you unravels beautifully.
Don’t fret my sister, my girl.❤️🔥
Till I write to you next time, read one or ten of Apostle Paul’s letters……..
Nuella🤎,
Your sister in Seasons!